I was venting my anger out in my pervious entry and I might have removed some friends I didnt mean to. If you are one of those people, please let me know.

Hard to believe its almost been a year since I updated.

After this year, I realized a few things about most of you.

Most of you are bitches. Assholes. Backstabbers. And anything else bad. Yeah. I'm not going to waste time naming names, but you people know who you are. In any case, thats fine. I dont know what I did to you but I would sure like to know, and some for some reason I can't get a straight answer.

Teh. Whatever. There are some of you out there, that I'm not upset with, and I thank you for being there for me and shit. Teh. So...I have to think carefully about who I put on my damn watch list. so tonight, I'm going through my deviant list and take off people I dont even talk to or whoever I'm pissed at.

Alright. Time to explain the reason why I havent been doing much or saying much lately. I've been spending too much time playing World of Warcraft. At first I didnt think I would get hooked to it, but I find myself playing that game every day. Eh. I wouldnt really be playing it if my friend/friends didnt play it. It wouldnt be fun without them. And to think I once critcized a friend of mine for being hooked on FFXI. I find it kind of funny but whatever. Enough about that drug.

A lot of things have been bothering me lately. Funny because those things that do bother me, I never thought they would. And the things that I thought that would bother me, turn out to be a interesting and somethng I can deal with it. A couple of my friends (they should remain nameless although they're going to know damn well who they are when they read this) have been VERY irritating. I'll be talking with them, and then they'll same shit out of the blue like:

"Oh. I'll just hang up and stop bothering you."

or

"Do you find me to be a bother? Are you sure?"

Thats what really pisses me off. If you're a bother, I'll let you know. And if you think you're a bother then fuck off, because I have no time feeling bad for people who think they bother me. Yeah I said it. I said I have no time feeling bad for anyone. I have my own feelings to deal with. Other friends to put up with and look out far. Don't waste time trying to make yourself look like the bad guy and trying to make me feel bad. You're just going to make my life a lot worse. And they seem to say this shit at the worst times to, its just so.... annoying.

WoW isnt the onlly thing I've been spending my time on. I've been buying Xmas gifts for friends, and I'm almost out of money thanks to the shipping (which was a pain in the ass) and I dont think I'm going to have enough to get my other friends any gifts. Oh well. Just goes to show things go. And I'm not heartless if thats what some of you thinking. I'm simply balancing things out. For now on, I'm going to think about myself slightly more than I think of others, because when I think of others too much that fucks my life up. So yeah, if I seem cold around you just keep that in mind.

I would like to thank the friends who have managed to stay on my good side during this dark time that I'm going through. As for the other ones, try not to piss me off too much. There is only so much I can take.



I would like to take this moment to be thankful for having an angel like:



She has always been there for me and I love her for that.

Thank you, my great friend

Besides all the Christmas shopping I've been doing for my friends and family, everything else has been great so far. That friend finally forgave me. Yay. Since that guilt isnt there to bother me anymore life has been pretty easy. Me and her are on somewhat speaking terms. Lets see....nothing else much I can say.

My Christmas List:

Any .hack dvds except the 1st two from sign. I already have those.

Any Orphen DVD or the Boxset would be nice.

That Inu Yasha video game for the PS2.

Any Di Gi Charat DVD and or Graphic novel.

Any Sakura Wars DVD.

Read or Die Tv series Volume 3

Neon Geneisis Plantium Volume 3

Any Angelic Layer DVD and any Graphic novel except the 1st one.

The Slayers TRY boxset

The Slayers Motion picture on DVD

Any Steel Angel Kurumi graphic novel except the 1st one.

Geez. theres a lot more stuff I want but cant seem to think of it. I'm too busy thinking of other people. Umm... some hentai would be nice. No VHSs. Gos help me if one of you get me something on VHS. Nothing that involves Pokemon, DBZ, and Yu Gi- Oh and Duel matsers and all that other kiddy crap.

I would like to take this moment to be thankful for having an angel like: She has always been there for me and I love her for that. Thank you, my great friend

Eh. I sort gave up on that one former friend. I realized I dont need her forgiveness. I've replaced that friend with 3 better friends. Man, November went by pretty fast. I need to try and start working on gifts and my deviantArt Christmas card for you guys. I'm going to work on at least 6 maybe 7 gifts for my friends. I dont have time to do one for everyone you know. If I cant make you one, I'll send you one instead.
Lets see, oh yeah. I lost another friend recently, but I dont really care about that anymore. She was being a bitch anyway. I found out from a friend of mine, that she was saying all this bad shit about my deviant site, saying my poetry sucks and I cant draw. Yeah, I know I cant draw, but she was out of line when she said my poetry sucks. She couldve said "I think your poetry sucks!" You should read her crap. Sounds like something I would read in a book in 3rd grade. I'm not going to post a link though, because thats just mean. I'm not mad that she said that, I'm just mad at the fact that she was acting all nice on a comment she left me on my front page (hint hint) then has the nerve to go behind my back and talk to my friend and say all that shit to him. What a bitch. Then she had the nerve to deviantWatch me, and when I asked her why shes like "I want to see what more crap you can come up with." But its all good. Me and Lilika set her ass straight. If she fucks with me again, we will make her life a living hell. Ah. It feels so good to get that out of my system.
The only other thing I've been up to is keeping myself glued to my Xbox, and to think I used to hate this system so much and now look at me. I gave away my GameCube though to my niece since Gamestop was only to give me 40 bucks for it. It was her birthday anyway so its all good. The games I've been playing on Xbox live are, mostly dead or alive, then there is Burnout 3 and the new Goldeneye game, which is much better than Halo 2. Well that about sums it up. I would say more, but some stuff is better left said unsaid. Maybe I'll write something under my secret name. What? You dont know what my secret name is? Then send me a link. However depending on who you are, I might not give it to you, so be ready for being denied acess to my private life. Yes! I have a private life. What a world! Oh. PS: To the super nered (You know who are) do me a favor and see if I made any spelling errors in this entry. Of course I only say that because knowing you, you'd probably would do it anyway.



I would like to take this moment to be thankful for having an angel like:



She has always been there for me and I love her for that.

Thank you, my great friend