Tomorrow is my one year anniversary here at deviantART and I have to admit I've made a lot of mistakes, a lot of stupid mistakes. Right now, I'm trying to get a former friend to forgive me, but it looks I wont be getting it anytime soon. It really hurts because after thinking about a lot, I do feel very guilty about what I did. iTs the worse pain I've ever felt. I wish I can make this pain go away but I can't, and its going to bug the hell out of me for the rest of my life. I've even try to buy her forgiveness, but it doesnt seem like that its going to cut it. I've done my best, and asked her for one more chance, but no matter what she wont respond. I can't blame her, being the asshole I am. I wouldnt want anything to do with me if I were her. This is what has been bugging me lately. This is whats making me real sick. I havent been able to enjoy playing video games, without that one thought of what did popping into my head. What I did was very wrong and stupid and I wish could stop myself from doing it, but I guess the damage is already done. If you're reading this entry (you know who you are) I'm not asking for your to be friend again, of course I would like that, but I don't thinka thats gonna happen. I'm simply asking for your forgiveness. Yeah, I know its a lot to ask for, but I already gave details explaining my actions.



I would like to take this moment to be thankful for having an angel like:



She has always been there for me and I love her for that.

Thank you.