I have to admit I've made a lot of mistakes, a lot of stupid mistakes. Right now, I'm trying to get a former friend to forgive me, but it looks I wont be getting it anytime soon. It really hurts because after thinking about a lot, I do feel very guilty about what I did. iTs the worse pain I've ever felt. I wish I can make this pain go away but I can't, and its going to bug the hell out of me for the rest of my life. I've even try to buy her forgiveness, but it doesnt seem like that its going to cut it. I've done my best, and asked her for one more chance, but no matter what she wont respond. I can't blame her, being the asshole I am. I wouldnt want anything to do with me if I were her. This is what has been bugging me lately. This is whats making me real sick. I havent been able to enjoy playing video games, without that one thought of what did popping into my head. What I did was very wrong and stupid and I wish could stop myself from doing it, but I guess the damage is already done. If you're reading this entry (you know who you are) I'm not asking for your to be friend again, of course I would like that, but I don't thinka thats gonna happen. I'm simply asking for your forgiveness. Yeah, I know its a lot to ask for, but I already gave details explaining my actions.

Actually, I'm going to keep that header there until the year is out, so if you bother to read my damn journal, just overlook it.

I am thankful for all the things I have.

I am thankful for my friend named Heather.

No. Not THAT one ---------->

<------ but THIS one

I mean, I'm also thankful for THAT one. But THIS one has put some amusement into my life. She even drew me a gift:

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It made me feel all warm inside my heart... and in a few other places as well. >_>;

Sure. The other one drew me something as well, but I rarely see her now, and her gift wasnt as colorful. Dont get me, wrong, I love that gift too, its I just that THIS one's gift was "slightly" better. Thank you, Heather for the lovely gift.

I am thankful for my family who has put up with so much crap with me.

Geez. I have a lot more things to be thankful for, but I'm just too lazy to list. I'm also thankful for all the people who watch me and who have helped me through this rough time I'm going through.

I'm also thankful for having a little servent, who will almost do what ever I say



I would like to take this moment to be thankful for having an angel like:



She has always been there for me and I love her for that.

Thank you, my great friend